I went to the dentist today because of excruciating pain, yup getting 6 teeth pulled on Monday. It shouldn't be tototo bad, but it won't be a trip to the park.

Yikes.

I also have a secret but I shan't share it yet, it makes me happy tho....

here are some recent pics because I'm le bored....




Halloween tatts!

Jon soldering pants, and my first carved pumpkin ever, I made slimer

I drank to much wine last night!
:(

and I'm bartending this morning,
saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad face!

coconutcurry is going to be a different LJ I usefor more personal stuff, friends only TMI and shit like that. I was going to try and make THIS one friends only but I have like 8 years of entries that I don'tfeel like going over and making them all friends.

SO this one will be used 90% of the time, and the other will be for the special times...

yeah lame I know.
Comment or add me if you want to read those entries.

So I've promised Mike I'd make him a cake for a few days now so I decided to do it today. I'm making a dark chocolate bundt cake with dark chocolate chips, and I made some homeade frosting. If the cake tastes like the batter it will be fucking delicious. The frosting is pretty hardcore too. I'm just COVERED with cocoa and confectioners suger and butter and batter, I'm a real delicious HOT MESS! Yikes. I will obviously be having a piece so I'm gonna work out hardcore today and tommorow to make up for the cake and batter consumed. go fig

The sea's evaporating
Though it comes as no surprise
These clouds we're seeing
They're explosions in the sky
It seems it's written
But we can't read between the line

Hush
It's okay
Dry your eye
Dry your eye
Soulmate dry your eye
Dry your eye
Soulmate dry your eye
Cause soulmates never die

This one world vision
Turns us in to compromise
What good's religion
When it's each other we despise
Damn the government
Damn their killing
Damn their lies

Hush
It's okay
Dry your eyes
Dry your eyes
Soulmate dry your eyes
Dry your eyes
Soulmate dry your eyes
Cause soulmates never die

Soulmates never die
Never die
Soulmates never die
Never die...
Soulmates never die
Soulmates never die
Soulmates never die
Soulmates never die

I'm so tired, and so sore, and so ready to go back to bed. But "lucky me" I picked up a double today! (woohoo...not).
SOB working half the day behind the bar, and the other half on the floor. I really HATE doing that. I might see if anyone wants to pick up for me tonight. We shall see.
I do need the money but I'm an emotional wreck as of lately and I need some down time.

I've lost a considerable amount of weight but this past few weeks it's as if it doesn't move. I will lose a pound or 2 gain it back lose it gain it. It's so fucking frustrating!

someone shoot me.

I guess I'm getting better, still a ways to go till I'm happy

I love baking, it's superb.
Making some butter cookies now. I can't wait for those little bitches to be done, yum!

Well, sometimes I wish you knew.

YES I know. It even has the wedding ring. I found it today doing laundry, I thought it was lost forever! <3

blow a bubble with gum that isn't bubble gum? like the orbits stuff that makes your mouth taste like a fruit popsicle.

It's next to impossible unless you chew like 10 sticks...

But I'm a fucking warrior!

So my diet/excersice kick is going stellar! But sometimes temptation kicks in.
When it does I go here...

http://thisiswhyyourefat.com/

Holy shit.

It was so much fun when you were younger, and you would buy the really cool valentines from the grocery store, make kick ass mail boxes out of carboard and bring cupcakes to school.
I MISS those days! Now it's a load of crap. A corporate holiday you are "forced" to celebrate to "prove" you love your SO.

BAH

They still make delicious candies and fun V-day cards for kids.
I'll stick with those.

I used to have an amazing job where all I did was drink tea, sell tea pots and danced and did silly things. Then the corporate office turned more "corporate" and they cheated me out of alot of money and time, and blamed things that weren't my fault on me. I miss those days tho.

I could have my car repo'd because of this shit.

I hate not having money.

So I go to return some shoes and fill time until my dad comes over. I go to TJ Maxx to look around and this cardigan on the sales rack catches my eye. I read the label and am shocked. it's original price was 500 dollars, TJ Maxx wanted to sell it for 200 but it was on sale for 7.

don't believe me..


Of course I got it. I would have bought it even if it's original price was 7, it was cute and totally my taste (looked like something an elderly secretary would wear... totally MY taste).
I'm debating maybe trying to sell it on ebay, or just keeping it for myself.

I also got some seriously delicious smelling perfume. I smell like a spicy jasmine flower. It's terrific!

hopefully in the next week or 2 or 3 I can get to work on the top half. If I make some money I can.


That's me 5 minutes before I leave.
( really horrible pics of my arm )

my arm is throbbing, burning sticky and swollen... but it's done...yes

So tommorow morning I go in to start my sleeve. We are doing the first bottom half of it, and basically he is gonna do as much as I can sit through. I don't have any idea how long this will take but I have to suck it up and be a man high pain toleranced amazing female. He is moving to Montana some time in March so any work done by him has to get done pronto (or as much as I can afford). So yeah. Should be fun, my arm will be throbbing, swollen, and sticky, sexy right? But hopefully everything looks tight and clean and awesome. Altho I'll prob be miserable most of the day :(

I am nervous... I just want to make sure I can sit through it all, that's my only concern. I don't even know how much of it is getting done. It's like a suprise!

that if I had a personal style it would be librarian/secretary-ish.

( prooooooof )

I have way more pics... but i don't feel like dumping, and there is so much that people can take of my ugly mug anyways